Elements of Story-Telling

How do I tell my story? As a Victor or Victim? Joel Osteen says this a lot, and I see how it makes all the difference. My words direct my course. Not usually what I speak aloud, but the message I send myself within. It's what I'm always structured by. Is it, "I am" or is it "I am not"? Yesterday I wrote a post that said, "I am not..." and it turned out to be a fail post.

Creation

Been reflecting on the Creator, and creative power, especially over my 4.5 mile hike today. I thought about the concept of dominance, and how there are so-called dominant genes. I reflected upon whether that was really attributed to the genes, or if it was the shift in humans that allowed that gene to be represented or reflected more. I wondered why there even was a series of dominant and recessive genes in the first place. I thought about the affirmative. I thought about the great shift Jesus brought in a culture where certain ways were firmly set and how this could lead to a following. Was it the genes that created us or was it us who determined which genes would be encouraged to be expressed?

Joel Osteen is a great role model for manifesting what you believe in your heart and speaking it as if it's already been done. He says not to say, "it's going to happen." It already is. I have been saying this already. I am a fruitarian. What it takes for this to become certain is only a matter of time. What I achieve (I'm curious how this will effect how I play flag football and MMA as I get that into place) will be mostly from sheer will and training, and I will not be reliant on food. I want to achieve my best with it. My sister's husband says in a fun way, "Man, all my mom fed me was beansprout soup and vegetables." lol His (beautiful sweet awesome) mom prepares healthful meals, considered bland, very low in meat and with lots of vegetables and always with dark grains. He thinks he could have been taller and stronger if he ate more meat. While this may be true for many of the strongest men in the world, I think of Daniel in the Bible, who ate the vegetables only and was found to be in better shape than all the other chosen men who dined on the king's food.

I feel like we are participating with creation. Have the faith to structure it. Hold an empowered image. You create yourself from it. It is the spring from which you come forth. Don't ever let a defeated thought take over.

Peace and Trust,
Tinah

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Emphasis

Success is our inevitable outcome. We're going to get there no matter what. I want to emphasize this to my student. He has improved much. On his own, he does 10 push-ups and sit-ups when he feels he needs to be more self-disciplined and to put more of his care into his work. He used to not be able to do these push-ups on the knees at all, and he could only do 1 or 2 sit-ups at best. He tends to turn off his mind and just lean on other peoples' signals to find correct answers. I am seeking to emphasize self-responsibility with him, that he uses his own mind to solve problems. I told him upfront today, that when he does not care about his work or put care in the development of his brain, I lose my interest in being there. If he does put care in, I want to help him and put my care in as well. He asked me today if he could be good at anything he tries for, and I told him yes. This is how he is able to do his push-ups and sit-ups much better now, how he is able to solve his Math problems, how he is able to succeed in his spelling and writing, and it applies to anything. As he keeps trying, he will keep improving. It is fulfilling to see him making improvements.

It is good to be awake. I look forward to the daytime, even though I dry-fast through it. Today I wore a shirt that reminds me of something Pipi Longstocking might wear, it's long, a light tan color, and I wore a brown knee-high skirt over it. I used to love watching that show. I remember there was an episode where she made cleaning look like a lot of fun.

I am getting along in detox. When I am fully toxified, my eyes are puffy and my skin is very discolored. It is discolored here, but there are signs of improvement already. Believe it or not, this is when it has already begun the process of being softened. In my most toxic of states my skin was as thick as could be.

Well today I may jog with a friend, then I will watch my sister's baby as she goes to a Wedding rehearsal dinner. I have a good sister.

Blessings,

Tinah

Greetings

Here I would like to reflect on life, on choices, on thought processes, and see how these things altogether are making my experiences for each day.

I tutor in the mornings from Tuesday-Friday. My student is growing a lot. He started off not being able to put his focus into learning, but he is gaining confidence and determinism, as well as a positive attitude all along the way. He now seeks discipline, and his focus is undeterred (when he applies himself). Today he worked quietly.

Today I was more inward focused, on the nourishing forces of peace. I had resolved to make sure we were focused, clear, and structured in all we did. I made sure not to lose my center, knowing the big picture of it all, and keeping it all in check. We had about 10 minutes for a recess break so we swung on the swings. I closed my eyes while swinging, which felt amazing. I told him to try this as well. He said it felt like flying. : )

Even though my student is arranged to go to a special learning center for the intellectually disabled or students who need more devoted attention, I told him it was good he was setting his sights on returning to the normal public school. He hopes to return there someday. As we were walking, he pointed out an "enemy" among his list, and I waved to this child and his mom with a friendly hello. I told him to wave as well. He told me not to, and I told him, "what if I did not wave to you, and said you were my enemy for all the things you did that I did not like?" He registers these mirrored scenarios very well, and he waved at them.

I am looking forward to the rest of my day. My sister and her baby are coming over, I will help her shop for a bridal shower gift for her friend, my friend and I will go jogging, and I will be able to feast on fruits at night. Afterwards, I will be able to read the beautiful writing of Elisabeth Elliot's Let Me Be A Woman.

Love & Peace,
Tinah