The calm

I just wanted to comment on how I've noticed that my nephew responds to my calm quite well, and not to a tense or anxious, forced state. I also noticed that he responds really well when I talk to him in Korean. I suppose the words I say would sound really silly trying to say them in English. They would sound like, "Who is this one who came out this cute this way" and with a respectful tone at the end. I also say things like, "So you have been well" in an honorific form in conversation with him and a lot of affirmations that sound more authoritative in Korean. He does this thing where he makes an "o" with his mouth and puts on the most sincerest eyes and makes these sounds back to you. It's quite funny. I talk a lot to him and he talks a lot back.

I am Determined

I am very grateful and blessed... more than I could made the way for on my own.

I have to learn to reach the highest height I can with what I have been given. I have to show the Universe that what I was given was not too much, that by continual grace, I will reach the highest potential I am created for.

I was not able to meditate before because of the condition of my mind and body. Now there is a way to overcome all these things. I am on that path.

Beautiful Baby

These are photos a friend took of baby with his mom.

: ) He is sweet. Babies are to be provided the very best care. He's 3 months and a week and he talks a lot and laughs a lot. When his family (my sis & BIL) was over I was singing songs like, "Do you Love Me" and "Hey Now" and he just smiled a lot and sang along. He is so cute when he sings, it's quite funny! He reaches out his hand and grabs things too. The other day, I was holding him and bonding(he's so sweet), and a guest wanted to hold him. I gave him to her and he was looking at me and he reached out his hand to me. I hadn't seen him do that before.

I think with my baby I wouldn't want to leave them with anyone else for the first few months. It would be hard to do this at all. I just want them to know I'll always be there.

Love,

Me

Family Ethic

What I really mean by that is Social ethic.

Well, today I had a really great sense of it with my family. We all got busy making the house cleaner and looking nicer, and we all pitched in for each other. I really needed some software for my computer and my brother took notice and brought to me exactly that. My mom made some simple home-made food and I commented on how delicious it was and she showed me how she made it in that particular way I complimented on.

Well, I make it known here that I am interested in fruit as a pursuit of living in communion with Nature as I can honor this best in my life. I was thinking I want to continue this feeling of communion with family, without isolating myself to keep my lifestyle. It's going to take that extra boost of work. When I want to share recipes with family, I'm sure they would love it. I can introduce some really great fruit-filled plates. I can even make fresh versions of things like salsa, which seems to be enjoyed quite a lot. I just want that sense of community to always be there, to be in the meals together, in life together. A fallen thought would be thinking I might falter and so not going out at all and missing out on time together. Perhaps instead I can invest in something else towards this group, like setting up for something we'll play when returning from the meal, or something like that. I don't want to take away from this.